Sunday, February 23, 2003
Mood:
Peaceful
Music: Ben Folds - Fred Jones (Part 2)
I'm back from Houston. I can assure everyone that I'm feeling a LOT better than I did last week. Thanks to everyone who offered your sympathies and all your help. It really means a lot to me. ^_^
One of the most depressing parts about going home was the arrival. I wasn't able to get home on time to go with my family to my grandpa's memorial services at the Jade Buddha Temple, so I had to come home to an empty house. The first things I see when I unlock the door are my grandpa's cane (with splinters in it, presumably from the accident) and a plastic bag full of some of his belongings that were found in his pockets. I tried to hold back the tears, but I'm sure everyone can guess how well that went. It just really sank in that he was gone when I saw grandpa's belongings, but no grandpa.
As for the funeral, of course it was sad. But the saddest part wasn't the sermon, nor was it seeing my grandfather's body...I'd say the most heartbreaking part of the funeral would be seeing my grandpa's friends there. Seeing elderly men in tears as they shuffled past my grandfather's body to pay their final respects saddened me more than anything else...seeing the elderly cry upsets me to no end. I just feel that they've already seen too much to have to experience any other kind of pain. At any rate, I suppose it's fortunate for grandpa that he was let off well. To quote my mom (as best as I can translate from Chinese):
"He really was lucky. He didn't have to suffer when he met his end. He was healthy enough to take care of himself, he slept well, and he ate well. He didn't have to suffer at all."
It's true. He didn't suffer at all, and that's an extremely fortunate thing for him. We just weren't ready to see him go yet.
Anyway, it was good seeing the family, and I'm feeling much better about the whole ordeal. These things happen, and we just can't do anything about them. You take the good with the bad, and move on. It's all part of a little thing called life.
Cindy blabbed at 06:57 p.m. |
Tuesday, February 18, 2003
Mood:
Crushed
Music: Phantom Planet - Something is Wrong
Ugh.....I still can't get over it. Just the fact that it was fuckin' BROAD DAYLIGHT when the lady hit him. How the hell do you miss an old man crossing the road at 8 am? If it were 5 in the morning when it's kind of dark, then I could understand....but 8 in the morning...that's just ridiculous. *Sigh*....I know I shouldn't rag on the woman who hit my grandfather, but I can't help but feel a little frustrated when I think that if someone had been a bit more careful, then I'd still have my grandpa today. I really want to be home right now.
Cindy blabbed at 12:38 a.m. |
Monday, February 17, 2003
Oh god....I need to disappear from the world for a while. My grandfather passed away this morning. He was hit by a car. Someone please tell me this isn't real...I need to go home.
Cindy blabbed at 05:57 p.m. |
Monday, February 17, 2003
Mood:
Nervous
Music: Eric Clapton - Tears in Heaven
The Great AOL Instant Messenger Challenge: Update
*Phew*....I almost blew it. Less than 1 day without AIM and I almost blew it. I was listening to Lifehouse's "Somewhere in Between", and my roomie asked me to send it to her. I nearly logged onto AIM to send her the file....I saw the words "Connecting...", then "Verifying password...". Once I processed what these words meant, the thought "NoOoOoOoOoOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!" ran through my head, and I promptly clicked the "Cancel" button before it could proceed to log on. *Phew*....giving up AIM is going to be harder than I thought. >_<
Cindy blabbed at 01:11 a.m. |
Sunday, February 16, 2003
Mood:
Sleepy
Music: Splender - I Think God Can Explain
The Great AOL Instant Messenger Challenge: Day 1
Eeek.....my first day going without AIM. I'm feeling cut off from the world already. >_< My monitor looks so lonely without that rectangular buddy list window at the side...*sob*. But I know that if I click on that little yellow man in my quicklaunch bar, I'll be eating leaves for a week. Thus, I hold myself back.
But anywhooo...*eyes AIM icon*....at dinner time, the kid in me broke out of her nineteen year old shell. I played with my food. I had mashed potatoes in my dinner today, so I molded it into a little Hamlet in "soliloquy pose". Then I realized that it was a common pose for many Shakespearean characters, so I put a little crown on it and turned it into a lil' mashed potato Macbeth. But the crown looked more like a sprout growing out of Macbeth's head, so I carved in a smiley face and made it into a Deku Sprout from The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time. Finally, I turned the Deku Sprout into a mashed potato Julius Caesar, stabbed it in the back with a knife, recited the famous last words "Et tu, Brute?", and proceeded to eat my mashed potatoes. And to think that I hated Shakespeare. :P
Cindy blabbed at 10:43 p.m. |
Saturday, February 15, 2003
Mood:
Perky
Music: Chicago Original Broadway Soundtrack - Cell Block Tango
I went to see Chicago yesterday. Now THAT's a freakin' good movie. I especially liked the Cell Block Tango scene...it's my favorite song on the soundtrack, so I kinda had high expectations for it. And they were well met. ^_^ I'll buy the DVD in a heartbeat once it comes out.
Oh, and The Great AOL Instant Messenger Challenge begins tomorrow. Sunday, February 16th, 2003 at noon, I'll give up using AIM for a week. And if I don't make it, I'll have to go vegetarian for a week. And I REALLY love my meat. So I'd better damn well make it through this next week....*crosses fingers*
Cindy blabbed at 04:52 p.m. |
Friday, February 14, 2003
Mood:
Mischievous
Music: Gorillaz - Latin Simone
Bwahahahaha, happy Valentine's Day, everyone.
Cindy blabbed at 12:04 a.m. |
Thursday, February 13, 2003
Mood:
Silly
Music: Radiohead - High and Dry
I saw my first protest today. I'd seen flyers for it on campus for weeks already: WALK OUT OF CLASS AT 11:30 am ON FEB. 12th!! SPEAK OUT AGAINST WAR IN IRAQ!. And every time I saw one, I'd ignore it...heck, I paid good money for my classes....I'd better make the best out of that cash spent. :P Anywhoooo, today was the day of the protest....and I'll have to say that I was impressed with what I saw. I walked to history, and I saw this HUGE sea of people marching down the street, complete with banners, drums, and megaphones. They crowded the street so much that the campus buses had to stop and let everyone off because they couldn't get through....I didn't expect NEARLY as many people to participate. I was struck by one particular banner that had a drawing a sweet looking woman in a shawl with the words "Attack?" written in big red letters at the bottom. I dunno, it was kinda like seeing a gun pointed at a doe-eyed puppy. Ok, bad analogy...but you get the point. I still think that a walkout won't do jack shit to Bushy-poo's decision about attacking Iraq, but what I saw today was an exemplary show of the privilege we have to freedom of speech and expression. If we can't hope for diplomacy, let's just hope that we won't lose our rights.
Cindy blabbed at 12:43 a.m. |
Tuesday, February 11, 2003
Mood:
Okay
Music: Gorillaz - 19-2000
Right before Deran left for Chinese class:
Deran: I wanna get on that plane.
Me: Wha??
Deran: You know....it's from that movie...not Casablanca...
Me: ...
Deran: You know, the one where Humphrey Bogart says "Here's looking at you, kid."
Me: That'd be Casablanca.
Deran: No, not Casablanca! The one where the guy says "Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn."
Me: That'd be Gone With the Wind, and they didn't even have airplanes in that one. O_o;;
Deran: *babbles*....I'll remember it sooner or later! *heads for Chinese class*
Haha, and the funny part is that it turns out that the quote was from Casablanca after all.
Cindy blabbed at 01:38 p.m. |
Sunday, February 9, 2003
Mood: Chipper
Music: Weezer - Buddy Holly
I kinda saw this coming:
Where do you fall on the liberal - conservative political spectrum? (United States)
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Cindy blabbed at 03:41 p.m. |
Sunday, February 9, 2003
Mood: Chipper
Music: Weezer - Holiday
I'm putting myself up to a challenge. I'm going to try to stay away from the evils of AOL Instant Messenger for a week
.
BUT...I know I probably won't do this out of my own will, so in order for me to do this, I need either a motivation
or some sort of severe punishment. Deran suggested that I go vegetarian for a week if I don't make it. Any ideas?
Cindy blabbed at 03:32 p.m. |
Friday, February 7, 2003
Mood:
Cynical
Music: Sugar Ray - Someday
So Valentine's Day is coming up in a week. Those of you who know me are probably thinking: "What the hell do YOU have to say about Valentine's Day?? At least YOU'VE got someone to spend it with." Although that may be true, let me be one to say that even though I have a "significant other" to spend Valentine's Day with, I still think it's the stupidest day out of the 365 in a year.
Sure, there's all sorts of happy stories about Valentine's Day, but for the most part, it's just another commercial holiday. And instead of using a baby in a manger and a jolly man in a red suit to make sales, they use a winged baby harboring a dangerous weapon. They say that Valentine's Day is supposed to be when people show their love for each other. Why cram all that "love" it into one day of the year? If someone really means that much to you, don't pick February 14th to show how much you care....that should be something that's expressed on a daily basis, without the flowers and candy. Sheesh. Given that V-Day has its merits, it's sad to think that there are some couples out there who never do anything to show that they care for each other except on Valentine's Day. And even then it's all out of social obligation. Sad, I tell you.
Valentine's Day wasn't even originally supposed to be the way it is now. It originates from an ancient Roman holiday called Lupercalia. And you know what the Romans did on Lupercalia? Young men would run around naked and whip any women they saw along the way with goat skins to promote fertility. How the hell did naked men whipping women turn into chocolates, hearts, and cheezy stuffed animals?? It's still a mystery to me.
At any rate, I'll make the paradoxical disclaimer that I'm sure I'll enjoy my Valentine's Day next week, since I'll be spending it with Deran. But for those of you who are singling it on Friday, February 14th, 2003, I'd say hold your head high, get together with some friends, go hang out, and be glad that you're not running around naked or being whipped by goat skins.
Cindy blabbed at 04:04 p.m. |
Friday, February 7, 2003
Mood:
Cold
Music: Toadies - Tyler
I bombed my history paper. Let's just say I'm not too happy right now. My chances for getting an A in that course have now been cut down to "slim". :(
Cindy blabbed at 01:30 p.m. |
Thursday, February 6, 2003
Mood:
Lazy
Music: Tony Bennett - The Way You Look Tonight
Thanks to Steph, I've got the greatest robe in the world. It's made of grey fleece, and it's got a big coffee cup on the back with the words "Caffeine Junkie..." printed under it. Could anything be more appropriate? ^_^
[EDIT]: Even more thanks to Christine for picking out the robe in the first place! Thanks guys. ^_^
Cindy blabbed at 11:46 p.m. |
Thursday, February 6, 2003
Mood: Sleepy
Music: David Tao - Lullaby
I just spent 3 hours in a chem lab. And what was I doing for 3 hours? Weighing empty beakers, then filling them with water, and weighing them again. Who thinks chem labs are useless? Not I, not I.
My physics professor does a lot of demonstrations in one class period. I swear one of these days that guy's going to blast himself out of a cannon to demonstrate ballistics to us. But anywho...I've been feeling like a hermit lately. Maybe it's the classes that do it to me. Blargh. Anywho, I'm tired. Sleep sounds good right about now.
Cindy blabbed at 03:59 p.m. |
Tuesday, February 4, 2003
Mood:
Blah
Music: John Mayer - No Such Thing
<-- This is what chemistry does to me. It looks harmless at first glance. Then I take a good look at it....the next thing I know it smacks me in the face and knocks me over with the force of an angry gorilla. *Sob*...and it hurts. ;_; Blargh....at any rate, I've got a chem test tomorrow. Time to study. :P
Cindy blabbed at 04:47 p.m. |
Tuesday, February 4, 2003
Mood:
Tired
Music: New Found Glory - Forget My Name
Save the bananas!! Apparently bananas will be extinct in 10 years unless someone tries to help it's genetic code. *Sob*....a world without bananas?? Now that's crazy.
Actually, I take that back. This is even crazier. All I can say to that is: HOLY CRAP. How the HELL does anyone develop ass muscles like that??? Sheesh. O_O
Blargh....that's it for today's in-between-class blogging. :P
Cindy blabbed at 02:11 p.m. |
